i probably need to leave my room and stop listening to nostalgic music

i've been missing people a lot lately. 

i miss people who i haven't seen in years, people who have moved, people who i have just drifted from. i miss them all. i know a part of life is dealing with change and people coming and going in life, but i want it to stop. things are happening all to quickly.

its strange how in a single moment of time you can say to yourself "these people will never be out of my life" but in all honesty, only a few people actually stay. sure one could say that those are the people that truly matter, but i disagree. while yes they are important, there are many people in my life that i have know for only a short while that have made a life long impact on me. maybe i was only suppose to be acquainted with the for that small time, but damn i wish i was still in contact with them. sure i could facebook them and say "hey, how have you been? its been so long, we should catch up sometime soon!". lets be real, nothing would ever come of that. and if i ever met up with someone it would never be like it was before. it would be an awkward chat over coffee or a few drinks at a bar, we would chat for a bit and then say how lovely it was to see each other again and we should do this again sometime, both knowing its just an empty statement.

the funny thing is, you can never go back to how something use to be. i guess thats suppose to be a good thing, but it doesn't feel that way. don't get me wrong, its not like things are going miserably right now. i know i'm young and i should realize that this is just the beginning of change. i just should go ahead and strap on the seatbelt and await departure for the craziness that will be the next few years of my life. i just don't think i'm quite ready. as much i as i can't wait to get out of this town and move somewhere and hopefully be doing something that i enjoy just a little bit, i will miss this place and the people in it desperately.





*the worst is when you miss your best friend that lives across the pond. i can't tell you how many time i pick up my phone to text her and then remember i can't. now that sucks*