crash to take a chance

i'm sitting here waiting for another storm to come through. for some reason storms really calm me down. i may even like them more than a lovely spring day. 

this past weekend i was lucky enough to go to new orleans with some friends and family. of course it was just fantastic to get out of this town for a few days & the destination couldn't have been a better location. i've been to the city a few times, but you can never truly appreciate it until you are old enough to take it all in. somewhere during the parades, beads, bourbon street, father ramon haunting the hotel and courtyard talks...i fell a little bit in love with the city. (even after stepping in a puddle of god knows what on bourbon street while wearing sandals).

i may even move there for a bit right after school. who knows though, i will probably be set on at least 3 different cities before that time comes. 

until then i will slowly attempt to get my life together piece by piece. 

& the academy awards last night.  

i.can't.even. 

lol.

like the wheel that keeps travelers travelin' on

i can't get over how lovely the weather is outside lately. its been such a treat not having to frantically look for my red jacket every time i leave the house. i feel like putting on a sundress and having a picnic in the park while listening to craft spells. which would inevitably lead to making flower crowns and running around (yes, i have peter pan syndrome. i never want to grow up).

on another note, i have become completely obsessed with nail polish. now, this is really strange coming from a girl who will put it on every now and then and let it chip away. srsly guys i have a new nail color every day.
its taken over my bedside table.

++++++ i'm going to new orleans next weekend!

i'm going to nola next weekend!


with my family and 3 lovely ladies. 




:)

miracle on oak street.

st. patrick's day > valentines day. 

well, the dreaded valentine's day is almost over. while half of people are counting down the minutes to february 15, and the other half are trying to get in as much love as they can before the clock strikes midnight, i sit not caring at all. 

its not that i hate valentines day. 

really i don't.

i just don't quite understand it. 

yes, i have celebrated it in the past, bought gifts, went to dinner, chocolates, flowers....all of it. and while its a nice gesture and every girl wants those kind of things, i think i've decided that i don't want this nonsense feb. 14. hell give it that shit to me on a day when i get a bad grade on a paper i stayed up all night to write, when i get in a fight with my best friend, when i'm feeling ugly and frumpy, when i'm sad, or hell just because you fucking want to because you care. 

i didn't even realize that it was a holiday until i was in class today (then i again i did sleep until 5 minutes before) then i just spent the day laying in bed with my cat listening to joy joy division and justin vernon and working on my two-minute movie plot. and it was lovely because i treated it just like any other day.  

so if you're single, shut up about it and go about your day like its any other. 

if you're in a relationship, do the whole love day thing.

its as simple as that. 

:) 

i probably need to leave my room and stop listening to nostalgic music

i've been missing people a lot lately. 

i miss people who i haven't seen in years, people who have moved, people who i have just drifted from. i miss them all. i know a part of life is dealing with change and people coming and going in life, but i want it to stop. things are happening all to quickly.

its strange how in a single moment of time you can say to yourself "these people will never be out of my life" but in all honesty, only a few people actually stay. sure one could say that those are the people that truly matter, but i disagree. while yes they are important, there are many people in my life that i have know for only a short while that have made a life long impact on me. maybe i was only suppose to be acquainted with the for that small time, but damn i wish i was still in contact with them. sure i could facebook them and say "hey, how have you been? its been so long, we should catch up sometime soon!". lets be real, nothing would ever come of that. and if i ever met up with someone it would never be like it was before. it would be an awkward chat over coffee or a few drinks at a bar, we would chat for a bit and then say how lovely it was to see each other again and we should do this again sometime, both knowing its just an empty statement.

the funny thing is, you can never go back to how something use to be. i guess thats suppose to be a good thing, but it doesn't feel that way. don't get me wrong, its not like things are going miserably right now. i know i'm young and i should realize that this is just the beginning of change. i just should go ahead and strap on the seatbelt and await departure for the craziness that will be the next few years of my life. i just don't think i'm quite ready. as much i as i can't wait to get out of this town and move somewhere and hopefully be doing something that i enjoy just a little bit, i will miss this place and the people in it desperately.





*the worst is when you miss your best friend that lives across the pond. i can't tell you how many time i pick up my phone to text her and then remember i can't. now that sucks* 

pandora doesn't go back in the box, he only comes out.

first off, am typing with my freshly painted chrome/glitter nails. :)

you know its friday afternoon when you are sitting on the couch watching pineapple express with your roommates. you also know its a friday when you wake up with your laptop open and netflix has graciously told you that you have timed out. 

another weekend of what do you want to do tonight is about to commence, sadly i welcome it with open arms. 

last night i thought about how grateful i am for my friends. the funny thing is, i can't recall when i first started becoming friends with those closest to me. i can't even remember my life without them. i have never met people that i feel comfortable being myself around.

now i'm bored. 

but here are some awesome pictures i found on tumblr. 

i hope that made you smile.